Trær

2009-01-16T17:45:00.000-08:00

^{no longer caring.
POINT<}

2009-01-09T14:49:00.000-08:00

_{In glasgow, scotland.
Cold.
A bit of everything all at once.
Finding a way into something?
I finished the cooper union hometest in a week or so,
should've taken longer,
done more.
Whatever.
Not sure where I am right now.

^{p.s. The Dreamers Is the absolute worst excuse for a film ever. It's like the writer graduated film school and decided to inject his film with constant name-dropping, incest, and horrible actors.
I can't believe how many people recommended it to me.
Just because it is French, doesn't automatically make it beautiful, poetic, or even interesting.}}

when things fall they fall

2008-12-28T19:43:00.000-08:00

brushing the paint out of my hair
too many chocolate santas
not enough minutes in the car
swollen eyes

when do you get back?
snow and flight delays
remembering to sleep on planes

a list of demands for the new year:
sleep less
eat less
cry less
lie less
gather more
sit less
read more

things for 2009:
get found

2008-11-02T19:53:00.000-08:00

portland, OR

2008-10-30T00:33:00.000-07:00

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A V OI D R

2008-05-04T16:26:00.001-07:00

If today is a mirror of what is to come,
then I'd like one for the past.

If nothing else becomes what I've decided,
I will lay in error the rest of tonight.

Fragile in my indecision and insecure in thought,
second guess each hour that passes
upon my present heart.

We dine in elegance.
We dine in faith

If nothing else can be concluded,
this smile I've created will be
fake.

I can't imagine what you'd say, because I cannot imagine you. But I imagine that you'd be a proper talker, and an reputable liar. Guilt. I carry guilt and fucking insecurities where I run, and last night I ran to the end of the world, and it was dark, darker than I'd even imagined,and my imagination is drowning in the deepest of cellars, yet it was still darker.

2008-04-12T21:37:00.000-07:00

Every minute I drank to keep myself from drowning
caught up with this hand and crept down this cotton;
uniform in motion but silent in treatment
a downward crawl into blank state;
I sit snapping and wearing these empty hallows
endearing them to artificial light;
sickened by my unwillingness to comply
and tired of the aura I create;

simply unscathed but--bleeding nails
more proof of stress than wearing entails.

When in paris we ate nothing,
and I tried on the shoes of a transient traveler, but with each step the soles felt newer.
I tried to imagine this raven haired girl's childhood. Sipping tea and slipping diction to a mother. I imagine her bathroom has an ivory sink, the window outside cluttered with flowers. The kind of sun that you want to bath in, not this breed which burns and tears at eyes. She sits chatting with her friends on the metro, I stare at the reflection of my uncombed hair.
When in england, at your house, I feel nothing,
and I try to understand why.
I held your hand and it felt like a burden, it felt like there was need; the breed of need you get from a stranger.
We sat silent a lot. You frowned too much. The rain was never cold enough. My thoughts were never deep enough. The air was never thick enough.
We complained how cold it was, and never dressed any warmer.
I said it was because we forgot.
I think you're convinced of mystery.
As if it's in your blood.

2008-03-31T07:49:00.000-07:00

2008-03-29T11:39:00.000-07:00

Grime

2008-03-11T15:07:00.001-07:00

_{I can't take back and walk and sift,
or crawl along the floor.
We traded thread
short from words
and actions beyond our doors.
if something dies}

Charles Bukowski & Guessing My Age

2008-02-18T08:21:00.000-08:00

_{Money & mullets
peanuts & pork
dirt across their faces.

being there depressed me.
A man who talked too much guessed Amanda was 14.
She won a fish and I named him.}

d

2008-02-11T18:21:00.001-08:00

slzx

2008-02-11T18:16:00.001-08:00

empty

2008-02-07T13:01:00.000-08:00

contract

constrict

retract

intact

broken tonight.

2008-02-05T15:35:00.000-08:00

X

2008-01-30T17:45:00.001-08:00

2008-01-20T13:44:00.000-08:00

^but ^{we were so cold and the day was so fierce. Thrashing at our thoughts and tearing at our sleeves.}

2008-01-13T14:46:00.000-08:00

2008-01-10T14:05:00.000-08:00

november december jump

2007-12-02T16:57:00.000-08:00

washington dc photos : more on my deviantart

e m p t y.

2007-11-23T21:16:00.001-08:00

Painting with your objective eyes

2007-11-19T08:45:00.000-08:00

I take it back,

2007-11-05T17:47:00.000-08:00

_{what I said.
I believe the term was recluse and you never used it that loosely.}

Alone

2007-11-05T17:29:00.001-08:00

_{I feel it.}

summer

2007-10-28T15:56:00.000-07:00

Photos from when I was visiting dan in london.

Friday night Saturday Drives

2007-10-27T14:40:00.000-07:00